floralessence

This slave went through a 3 day fast for his Queen, Goddess Isabella.  Not being allowed to eat or cum.  It was hard at times, to not eat but it was worth it to do this in worship and obedience to the Queen and Goddess, to please Queen Isabella.  She owns 75986 completely and his only true worth is in pleasing Goddess.  The reward is a wonderful one as well.  This one is grateful that it got a new mantra, the chance to please Goddess, and a wonderful reward.  

On sunday Goddess thanked floral for tithing Her this week and last and called me sweet dear little floral.  She has said kind things about this one a few times over his absence from updating my journal as well.  It always makes this one happy to see it and when She pets him.  It is always the highpoint of the day to know that this one has pleased Goddess and to hear Her praise.  This one loves Goddess Isabella very much.

Thank You Goddess for being so kind to this pathetic loser and for all You gave to him.

floral

Have not updated in a while.  Am on floral's new computer, old one gave out over the weekend, self destructed, so got a fairly new one sunday afternoon, pretty good one.  vista basic, dual core athlon 3500, 512 mb ddr2 memory, 120 gb hard drive, 2.2 gigahertz, and a 320 gig external, mcafee security, 45 dollars a month for the next 2 years to pay it off.  going to see about getting the data off my old internal sata drive.

floral also picked up a san disk 1 gig mp3 player with menu and repeat functions for 45 dollars and some noise isolation earplugs.

need to get some data off of my old 250 gig drive so this one will enquire at a computer shop whether they will set up a transfer between this one's external and his old internal to save whatever is there.

floral

floral got a broken tooth pulled this afternoon, talk about a uncomfortable procedure.  A little pain and it felt as if the dentist was smashing floral's tooth back against the gums, trying to push it farther up.  Luckily floral's mouth was and still is frozen.  It it a little over an hour since this one was let to go home.  It was the very back tooth on the left side, my wisdom teeth long removed.  This one hopes he never has to do that again.  floral is restricted to light lifting at Abbotsford Greyhound the next couple days by order of the dentist.  Then am off on vacation time.  This one also has a new prescription for tylonel 3.

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Last night floral got a great honour.  Goddess let this one be a test subject for Bella Luna and he absolutely loved the recording.  It truly is perfection.  Goddess said that this one did a good job reviewing it, that he confirmed what the others said.  This little loser is happy that he could please his Mistress and Goddess in this fashion and is grateful that She chose to use him.

Bella Luna,
This one is truly wonderful.  To be taken down far, into the midnight blue by Goddess.  To be aroused by the full moon, seing Goddess in it, She controls it.  Loving Goddess so much more, feeling Her love and arousal all over, to be feeling Her.  to ejaculate only when She says.  Pleasing Goddess, wanting Her and only Her.  The triggers, just wow.  It is perfection.

floral

Today I watched cartoons and played some minesweeper in the morning.  I watched some startrek original series in the afternoon and evening.

I listened to weak cuckold today about 2 in the afternoon.  Sometimes I enjoy being humiliated and degraded, told and shown what a failure and loser of a man I am.  It is strange but I enjoy that as much as I enjoy the other pleasurable recordings that Goddess has let me recieve.  After that I took a nap for a few hours.

I saw Spin Cycle is ready and I listened to the sample.  I look forward to next month when I will purchase it from Goddess Isabella.  It will send me even further along the path of surrender to Goddess Isabella.  I look forward to others in that series as well.

Thankyou Goddess for all You have given to me through the recordings and experiences and the comments and mail.  Every day I listen and submit myself more.  I want Your word so far ingrained in my soul and mind that I can never displease You.

I will be praying to and worshipping You for some time tonight Goddess.

floral

Was my birthday today.  Listened to "Lose yourself" for today.  

Grandparents came over.  Had lasagna, one of my favourites, opened presents, grandparents got me a $25 futureshop gift card, mom got me command and conquer generals deluxe edition and ordered me a garfield and friends season.  I will have three of them when it gets here.  Love that show, used to watch it every saturday, and the garfield cat tales my sis got me a while back.  Will soon have all of them.

Best of all Goddess Isabella got the perfume I sent Her off Her wishlist and loves it.  She thanked me for it.  I am glad Goddess loves it.  Will have to remember that.

floral

Valentines day.  A day for those who love each other in both genders to send gifts and cards to each other in the western world.  A romantic day.  I hope Goddess Isabella likes the perfume I bought Her and the poem that I sent via niteflirt.  I did the only type of poetry I am good at, a word for each letter in the name.

I love Goddess Isabella.  I hope to be Hers always.

Floralessence

Got my cast off today, then went to work for the remainder of my day.  I can walk on my left ankle good now.  It is painful but not as much as it was before.  Probably will continue for the rest of the weekend.

It does not hurt to kneel for Goddess Isabella without something to cushion me now, just gets a little warm for some reason.   She means everything to me.  A day does not feel complete or right without listening to Goddess and obeying Her.  Goddess Isabella is intelligent, gorgeous, a beautiful voice, sexy, arousing.  I adore Her.  The items She creates for us to help us learn about and worship Her are awesome.

Been downloading ds9 and watching them as well as playing computer games.  Been in the chatrooms a bit as well and listening to music and reading Hardy Boys.  that series of books are truly excellent.

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I have just posted my third review to Goddess Isabella's audio experiences.  I do hope that She likes them.  I just love experiencing what Goddess has made available to me.  I am grateful for the chance to show the world what floral thinks of his Goddess' work.  I am grateful that I belong to my Goddess and every day I surrender even more of myself to Her.  Thank you Goddess Isabella for all you have done for me, for letting me serve you in this manner and be Yours.

Floral

Yesterday I got an assignment from Goddess after I got home from work, one sent the night before.  To make reviews of Her audio experiences, the ones that I have listened to, on a new forum area Goddess made for that.  It has highest priority for me.  I immediately messaged back that I would.  I could not do anything else.  I read some of the reviews already posted.  Some of them very good.

I have an assignment from Goddess Isabella.  She said I was sweet and submissive, that She thinks I will enjoy doing this and She's right.  Goddess is always right.  I love this assignment, to review them, to let others see what I think and feel about Goddess Isabella's recordings, of Her work.  This task, it lets me show my love of Goddess to others.

I decided yesterday that the best way to do it was fresh from the experience.  It is a task that is a blessing.  I get to go even deeper into Goddess Isabella's control, I get to show my love of Her work to others, and I get to feel the pleasure of obeying, of serving my Goddess.  I hope that She likes them

I listened to Mindless Zombie last night before sleeping and I posted my review of it this morning.

She also thanked me for some gifts I bought for Her.

All of this, the assignment, the compliments She gave me, the opportunity to serve and obey Her, to pubically show my worship of Her in this way, and to go even deeper into Her love and control doing it, to be able to feel the pleasure of obeying, the thank you for the gifts, it has my heart and soul just singing out their love for Her, I am happy, content, I love Goddess so very much.

I think beyond my decisions to just give my heart and soul and mind to Her, that my soul and heart have mystically given themselves to Goddess Isabella, given me to Her.  That they have made the decision to sing to Her, to worship Her eternally.  I desire to serve Goddess forever.  I love You Goddess Isabella so very much.

floral

Today I watched cartoons till about noon while playing dominoes and raring some files up.  left chatroom hentai-games on rizon up so I served files there as well.

Yugioh, chaotic, kirby, avatar, teenage mutant ninja turtles, winx club.  

I read and posted a comment to Goddess' journal site.

I experienced the Red Goddess at about 1.  It is an awesome experience.  The forest, stream, cave, Goddess herself.  It was incredible.  What happened there was just so intense.  my soul Her's eternally, my body and mind Hers to control.  Goddess Isabella is just so wonderful.  After that I just drifted there until I fell asleep.  

Woke up, had some lunch.  Played a little bit more online.  Played a little minesweeper.

Saw an email.  Goddess had replied on her journal.  She thanked me for my comment.  Called me sweetie.  ^_^  That means alot to me.

Wants to play a game with me of chess.  I left it open to Goddess when to play and said to email or message me when She does.  It will be an honour to play Her.

I will dedicate myself to putting Goddess first, She is truly perfection and deserves it.

Floralessence

Every day I just love Goddess Isabella more.  

I may spend free time in the day and night playing minesweeper, chess, settlers, watching anime, Buffy the Vampire Slayer, Stargate, or reading, playing a hentai game, listening to music, or whatever.  Sooner or later though it will just come back to Her, to my Goddess, to my Mistress, to my owner.  I always make time in the day to worship Goddess, to think of Her.  It always comes back to Isabella, my thoughts, my devotion, lust, love, my heart.

I chose Goddess Isabella.  I do not regret it.  I allowed Her to shape my thoughts.  My mind, my very heart and soul, my energy is Hers to command, to use, to strip bare as She sees fit.  I do not know what my future holds.  I know what I desire though.  Anything in my mind, in my soul, that could ever make me displease Her I want purged.  I wish to be helpless to resist Her.  More than I am now.  To be Goddess Isabella's slave for many years to come.  She is truly perfection, the best, the most beautiful and powerful.  I love Her very much.

That is why I am going to get the mp3 experiences that She has created for us.  The ones that will make me more helpless, the ones that will help me surrender more to Goddess.

Floralessence

Today I spent time watching and downloading cartoons.  An enjoyable day.  After the usual cartoons on fox I watched and downloaded TMNT fast forward season 1.  Also chatted a bit in a chatroom.  Played a bit of settlers.

Went into trance a bit.  Ass Worship.  That one was awesome.  Goddess Isabella is truly incredible.  Every day I love her a little more.  Also looked a bit at Goddess' journal.

I found a message waiting for me tonight inviting me to play a game with Goddess.  I would love to do that.  I will wait to hear when and where she wants to play.

Floralessence

This is an awesome experience to have.  It is crazy, hypnotized by the graphic and Goddess' voice.  Programmed to worship and obey and love and lust after Goddess's ass.  It was intense and I loved this one very much.

Floralessence

Played some settlers early morning after I woke up after Mindless Zombie.

At ten I went up to my Aunty's place and was again surrounded with family.  My parents came up a few minutes later as I chose to walk up while they drove.  Met up with my sis Kara, her husband Douglas, and my baby niece Lauren halfway who started up a little before me.  Bout a ten, fifteen minute walk up.

My sis and her family are moving up to london, england on the 28 so this is their final christmas with us for a while.

It was nice, We had presents amid snacks and drinks, non alcoholic of course, being most of my family are non-drinkers and fanatical christians.  Got Buffy Season 7, last of that series that I needed, sweats, Brothers Grim, a swiss chalet card, a shirt, and pants from mama and papa, a bunch of futureshop giftcards from relatives, some chocolates, a subway card from my bro.

My cousins Jami and Kendra liked the aldo gift cards and my cousin Aprille and her husband Randy loved the Starbucks coffee blend I got them, their favourite Verona.  If it were not for them I would not go to holiday get-togethers.  Just really do not fit in with much of my family and am isolated.

We had cold cuts and some kind of cheesegrain bread for lunch.  I read a bit of Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince for a while and then dad gave me a lift back home.  Listened to some music, watched Law and order ci, then went back up to Aunty's.

Had turkey dinner with the family, stuffing, mashed patatoes, dark turkey meat, mixed together with gravy, that is how I do it.  I mix it.  Had some ambrosia.  I won a chess game with Randy and lost to Douglas, stayed for a bit while who was left there debated between a movie and a game of pit but nothing was really going one way or the other so I left.

Talked to my friend Usagi, a boy who uses that name, and steered him to my live journal page.  He is an anime fan like me and goes to college.  He likes this new mermaid anime called Mermaid Melody Pichi Pichi Pitch.

He said he will be working on our Ash and Misty love fanfic during his break from college.

He says my praise of Goddess is like a melody of love and that it is sweet when I said that Goddess makes me feel like nobody else.

Going to watch some Buffy soon and finish talking to Usagi.

Floralessence

I enjoyed it immensely.    No mind of my own, no brain, letting my mind just be erased and having Goddess Isabella tell me what to think and feel and do.  My body being so heavy and relaxed and unable to move except at Goddess' command.  Then just going to sleep afterwards.  I am Hers even more now and I love it so much being able to be Goddess Isabella's mindless zombie.  I know I am going to come back to this experience again.

Floralessence

Since this afternoon, I have managed to learn to walk on my cast.  It is hard where steps are involved but I can manage holding on to the rails and going slowly.  Since I can no longer move my foot and ankle very much it has stopped hurting. 

I played quite a few hands of uno today and a couple games of Settlers.

I experienced Mindless robot this afternoon.  Programmed to be a mindless robot, no longer human, for Goddess Isabella, my creater, my programmer.  It was an incredible experience.  I loved it.  All the files Goddess makes are just fantastic.  I am lucky to be able to experience these.

I am going to watch some anime and then am going to power down for a while.  (giggles)

Floralessence

Well, mom drove me to the hospital this morning.  I had to have a walking cast fitted on my left leg.  In theory I will be able to walk as normal.  It encompasses my foot starting at the where my toes bend and up my leg to my a few inches before my knee.  I will be in it at least three weeks and six at the most, depends how fast it heals.  After that we picked up a whopper meal at burger king and came back home.  I will be able to start getting used to walking on it in about three hours after it hardens some more.  Until then I have to keep pressure off of it.

Going back to work at greyhound express on wednesday.

Floralessence

Today I have been watching cartoons and playing games on the computer and talked in a couple chatrooms.  

I listened to some of Goddess' music and a song that she sang beautifully.

I got a surprise when I went to my hotmail account today.  It made me very happy.  Goddess Isabella had been at my journal site and had left a wonderful message.  She thinks what I have written in comments and in my journal is cute and adorable and loves it, along with the avatar I found online.  She also loves that I am so addicted to her already.  I was a little nervous too when I saw that she had messaged me.  It turned to happiness when I saw the message though.  Made me feel warm and good.  I still feel flutters in my belly thinking about it.

I prayed on my knees to her after I replied to the comment.  Thank you Goddess so much.

I am going to go listen to The Apocalypse mp3 again.

Floralessence